the dream circle started with visualization, an introduction to Dreaming. HeatherAsh described a place where we all meet, people from all over the world were in attendance. We imagined we were on an island in Hawaii - Maui - beach, with a large circle carved out. The circle was big enough to allow us to all sleep stretched out, with our heads nearest to a blue fire burning at the center. We made agreements on how often we want to wake up to chant, then go back to sleep half an hour later, so there is always chanting. The chant used that night was "Om Gum Ganapatayei Namaha" by Deva Premal. The exercise here is to become more aware of our dreaming, in sleeping and waking, until we are able to freely interact with our dreams, and to create our way through life.
I set my intent to get up every 2 hours, until 7:15am, since the closing call is at 8am. However, I got lost in my dream. I completely forgot I was in the dreaming circle until it was nearly time for the call. So here is the dream:
I am with a group of people, only one person I know, and others I do not know, and others still, only their presence, I dont know what they look like. We are in a industrial complex of sorts, and there is a lot of fear. Something has been coming from time to time, something that is so horrible that we are all feeling intense fear. It comes more and more often. We have this secret access door of sorts, which brings up this capsule from hidden underground, that we get into and it takes into hiding whenever this Thing comes. We hear some dreadful sound, like a rumbling, machine rumbling; and suddenly, we are gripped by this super horrible, intense fear, we all rush for the capsule.
I am about to punch the button to get us all out of there, and the person I know, my friend, Donnie, says, WAIT I need to get my “quattro” watch (whatever that is). It feels like it is extremely valuable to him, that he wants to rush to get it before we go down. Donnie rushes off, and all the others are gripped by the same urge, grab something valuable to them and I stay behind to man the capsule.
The rumbling comes louder, the fear rises, and there are visible signs of this thing coming. I don't know what it is, so much by fear that i was gripped that I don't see the details.
i wait, and wait, until the very last minute, but nobody comes.
I punch the button, and the capsule closes and starts to go down… it gets colder and colder. I start to see ice crystals in my eyes, in my vision, and I know that I am being frozen into a deep sleep. The last thing I think of and feel is guilt from pressing the button, and determination to not ever be in the mindset to have to “resort” to any sort of extreme measure instead of doing what is the higher thing to do. I felt that I can always do something higher and not sacrifice someone else, that there is always a way to do what you intend to do at the highest level, without expensing someone else.
At the closing call of the circle, we are put into groups of three to share our experiences with each other; then brought back to the main call, and to the blue fire circle. We all release what does not serve us into the fire in our minds' eye. At first I had difficulty doing so, as the fire refused to eat away at the item I wanted to contribute - namely the mindset of one at the expense of another. The fire I was imaging was a blue fire, where the blue in the center was closer to a whitish blue, and the outer licks of flame were a dark cerulean blue - very similar to what you would get going on a gas stove. I decided to relax and stop trying to have the flame consume the offering; and what happened was that the flame changed to take on an ethereal quality, where the outer flame was a somewhat pale purple, mixed in with an indigo tinged shade of violet; and the inner part was a pale cyan blue color. It was radiating outwards in a omnidirectional motion, where the licks were forming rings. The fire was growing outwards and it filled my entire field of vision, consuming, cleansing, radiating, warming all surroundings into a purple haven.